weekend

the past few days been hectic and i hate it! i hate when i feel overwhelmed by others .. its like .. i came here ... all the way across the ocean to live MY LIFE .. but it seems that old habits dont change fast enough and im caught again in the old habit of me trying to please everyone .. although my original plan was to stay home during the weekends, read a bit, study a bit , clean and work on my long-short term plans in canada .. i wanna feel like im finally here !! but no, i was being dragged out, being forced into long long family conversations on whatsapp and skype !! lol I WANT SOME ME TIME !! just a lil .. just to realize that im actually here .. dont get me wrong, i think being busy is GREAT ! it keeps me off worrying and stuff .. but i could really appreciate 3hrs of me time ... so dad has left on thursday.. it got me a bit emotional .. i think he wanted to cry too .. but to be honest, it scared me a bit .. in the past week, i felt like a tourist but with dad leaving, ths whole being abroad thing is starting to feel real .. its not bad .. being abroad and stuff .. but i got my own reasons to be a bit scared .. so yeah i was a bit emotional .. i dont know if its the normal anxiety, my personal reason or the fact that im PMsing .. ohhh my period is 3 days late and its KILLING ME !!! ive been drinking za3tar, mesmar , darseen lema 6l3aw mn 5ashmi and ive been walking alot but still .. i have the cramps and everything but no period :s .. i really want it to come today or tomorrow max .. becaus ei might start working on tuesday and the first 2 days are the worst so i wanna finish them before my long working days start :s so i got to know my lil new group of friends more .. hmmm.. they are kinda harmless and nice to hang out with but i need REAL friends .. i mean, haya is a kid.. she's warm and loving but again, she's like a kid .. plus although we agreed to go see the avengers together, she bailed on me and went to see it wth some one else without even inviting me along ... NOT COOL !! the least thing she could have done is telling me that she;s going to see it with some one else !! mo ana ag3d o an6er o b3din te6la3 shayfta :s .. then we got khlod, she's sweet and stuff .. but she's the party kind of a girl, her kind of fun is not my kind of fun. shes into clubbing and stuff so i dont know .. then we got noor, too quiet and dont know her yet .. anusha is an interesting indian girl but anyway, the group is warm and loving but not the kind that ud run to them if you need anythin!! plus they are like 19-22 yrs old LOL !! i feel like mama 3oda around them lol. yesterday we did something fun though, we had a potluck where each one of us cook something and then we share it over anusha's, we were supposed to help her assemble her new furniture but we ended up going karaoke all night long .. lol it was funnnnnn !! however, i came home with a headache lol . oh the other day we went to IKEA and god, not having a car is such a ma95ara .. it was SO FAR away, we had to take the subway to the end of the line then a shuttle bus and then had to carry all of our stuff back home :s ... OMG EVEN THE OTHER DAY, i went grocery shopping and almost dislocated my shoulders with the grocery bag !! i think it was +5kg !! it was so freakin heavy and i had to walk like a block !! not cool !! not cool !! again, the prices keep on shocking me !!! sheno ya3ni 3 pieces of green peppers eb 6 dollars !! which is 1.700 kd !!!! omg ! i bought like 2 cans of corn, 2 cans of red beans , 3 peppers, mayo , french sauce , oat meal, chocolate and milk and spent like 100 dollars which is 28 kd !!!!! la o payed 2dollars for the bag :s !!! food is extremely expensive here !! even stationaries .. sheno ya3ni 6 pencils eb 13 dollars which is 3.6 kd !!!! the girls were like, buy all u need of stationaries back home .. pencils and everything .. actually, they were like NEVER SHOP HERE !! always shop back home :s allah ye3z el kuwait !! omg, 9eg allah ye3z el kuwait .. everything is so cheap there :s